Trust Me.
Right before I heard these words, I prayed for God to speak directly to my heart.
I was experiencing a whirlwind of emotional struggle all around me, and I knew that with all the turmoil, I needed to quiet my mind and open my heart for God to speak to me. What surprised me was that it really didn’t take long to hear from Him.
Why do we think that God is so far away when He really is just a whisper away?
I am on a journey that I am hopeful will lead me to my goal of good health. I started this journey several years ago, but multiple delays (or maybe God’s intervention) have kept me from where I find myself at this moment.
I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I have gained and lost weight more times than I can count, but when I found myself at the highest weight that I have ever been, I decided that it was time to take a serious look at my health. I began the process to be qualified for lap band surgery and after six months of jumping through one hoop after another, I finally qualified for the surgery and received approval from my insurance company.
When I stepped out on this path, I felt I needed confirmation that God would be with me. He had always been faithful to me in the past, but the level of emotional struggles I find myself enduring was unlike anything that I have experienced before. I had to admit that I have tried to deal with my emotions in my own strength and failed, turning once again to food to cope.
I am not perfect, but I know I serve a perfect God.
I know that He is a God who understands me and never fails to sustain me, ye it is me that chooses to try to carry this burden alone, always telling myself that “I’ve got this”, but that is not what He wants for me.
He wants to be there for me. Why do I doubt His unfailing love for me?
As I pray and ask God to speak to my heart, it is those two simple words that speak volumes.
Simple, yet so very profound.
Trust Me.